spinning all around this summer

i was in the car with the j-master and he informed me that he didnt want to get older. that he wanted to stay little forever.
i thought that was a little goofy, considering the little man is six years old, but i guess it also makes sense. he's aware enough to know that being a big kid is kinda rough sometimes. things dont work out the way you want them too, and you cant always grow up to be a big, blue dinosaur who lives in an airplane (his dream job when he was 3, no jokes.)
today was a rollercoaster, and i have yet to recieve the sigh-of-relief phone call to let me know the ride is coming to a safe and secure stop.
its strange when the one person you want to tell everything to is the one person not telling you anything.

after a night of chick flicks on TBS...

i dont really have much to say.
and i really feel so utterly lame writing on my first commitment-free friday night of the summer. but.
theres still no motivation.
i feel ridiculous and uncool and, not that i was ever more cool than i am now (which isnt that cool), thats never been something ive truly struggled with before.
i used to be confident in my quirkiness, and ok when i spent a few nights just hanging out at home.
i used to make people laugh.

and i guess maybe i do and maybe its just that its 1:30 and i'm being melodramatic, but im not in full E-M-I-L-Y mode, and i feel like i havent been for a while.

this funk has lasted too long.

i keep on counting on my adventures to pull me through it, but maybe this one, this summer full of fun and craziness and his cabin full of boys having crushes on my cabin full of girls is the one i've been waiting for.

it ended with a chair.

in this strange, ridiculous world that we live in, there isnt much thats certain.
all i know is that occasionally, all you need is an english muffin and a great friend.