tickle blankets and blue men

im one of those assholes who finds a song she loves, listens to it over and over and over again, and then gets sick of it. sometimes i'll find it again and realize what i loved about it and sometimes ill find it again and laugh because i loved it in the first place. (i guess that can be associated with other parts of my life as well, now that i think about it.)
Relate To Me by The Voyces isn't the best song on the Thicker Than Water soundtrack. it isn't (if you're wondering, it's a tie between Rainbow and Holes to Heaven). but one rainy day sophomore or junior year i listened to it maybe eight thousand times. the distantly familiar voice, the comfort of an acoustic guitar, it just fits. two years later, it popped up on my pandora.com station. i cant help but soak in the nostalgia.
i hadn't watched garden state since the perfect day in israel. i was too scared, had built up the moment too much, too many expectations involved. i had just finished a test in reuven's class, josh's class had another three hours to go. we all yelled and made fun of our friends still struggling with the importance of Masada, why Herod made his stone a certain way. turns out that this time it ended up being great. the movie still makes me cry. the rainy day setting still makes me want to yell into an infinite abyss.
this past thursday, i was inspired. im finding this to be an ongoing trend for my thursdays, and something ive grown to look forward to. this time the inspiration came in the form of the founder of the blue man group who came to talk to us because he was a clark grad. he loves what he does. he adores it. and all i could do was sit there, agree with what he said, and hope that even a tiny part of me loves my career as much as he does. i wanted to be part of this club of innovation. i saw my favorite teacher laugh at their inside jokes and found myself wanting to be in on it too. "i'm in love with a girl whose in love with the world and i cant help but follow."
these songs and movies and moments dont really relate to each other, but over this lazy weekend, my first lazy weekend in a while, i'm starting to see the parts of me that have changed over the course of the last few years, and the parts that haven't changed at all.