Thursday, September 27, 2007

live for a living

"this makes me want to change the world," i told my friend, my partner in crime. we had just walked in late to a slam poetry event that we thought would suck. we were wrong. sometimes im overwhelmed when other people say things better than i could even hope to.

(i want to skew the difference between tai chi and chai tea and end up drinking a tall glass of graceful force.)

this time, i was overwhelmed with my contentness. in a good way. i mean i guess its hard to be content in a bad way, but it doesnt matter right now. there are those nights, every once in a while, where you think the day is just going to end and you'll wake up the next morning unaffected. they just pass. not tonight. and im not even sure why. it just worked.

(i don't know if possibly, i'm in love, but i know i love possibility.)

a long time ago, a friend of mine told me that i was in love with love. he scoffed. he said it as if it was a weakness. i've never forgiven him. i'm in love with love like jim and pam on the office. you laugh now, but thats how its supposed to be.

(i'll be there chasing sound waves.)

pandora.com has re-entered my life and it has changed my past 48 hours. in retrospect, i cant believe i let it slip away.

i've been so up and down lately, and i guess it just feels good to feel good. last weekend was wonderful. a welcomed break in my already-molded routine. a friendly face i hadn't seen in too long. next weekend will be the official start of something new, something big. but right now? I'm listening to a song from a band i've never heard of after hearing poetry from a performer i've never heard of after attending a meeting for a magazine i havent written for yet and its the most familiar and comfortable i've felt since i got here.

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